I'm still amazed of the point I got to, it's like being on the other side, or like I died for a few weeks and saw the world with a dead mans lifeless attitude. I wonder where else would the seek for truth lead me to since I cannot even imagine any further, I am afraid even to think about it, it's all dead, really dead in there. I actually ran back in panic. What I know suits me for now. Just live people, live!